My True Disguise

Lately I feel…

…Troubled.

I feel troubled for a close friend. I understand the pain he goes through day in day out, and I sense he is exhausted with life. Recent blogs of his own have only confirmed the fear I have for him. His thoughts and emotions he vents only show the vulgarity of his ‘put-downs’ he endures. I feel I want…no, need to help him. My previous attempts seemed to ease the suffering he undertakes, and so I aim to continue to attempt to help the best i can.

If you are reading this, I have attempted to contact you, which im sure you have recieved, and so will be anticipating your reply. Please. Do reply.

My best regards.

I’m actually…

…Incredibly happy at the moment. My life seems to be on track. My grades have improved, I’m actually appreciated my friends and I have been connecting more and more with them, and things couldnt be better with my wonderful girlfriend. To further my excitement, I get to enjoy a day with my best friend tomorrow, and on wednesday I am venturing out of my cave into another, the cinema.

It doesn’t seem like alot, but it really is to me.

My Spirits…

…have been raised recently. After a very lonely christmas holiday finally it looks as if I will have some form of social interaction with my companions at college. New Years Eve is approaching fast, and in just a few days I will be partaking in a social event sure enough to make me feel as if I belong somewhere. I can safely say I am thoroughly looking forward to it. Start the new year as I mean to go on.

I Feel…

…Alone.

I feel in the need of a friend. I’ve always known I am very alone in the world. That in 6,890,500,000 people in the world, I am just one person. One very lonely life. However I feel I only have myself to blame. Despite the many attempts my best, and only friend has made to contact me and arrange a get together, I have repeatedly fallen through. I am a let-down to myself, and must change this. I hope that very soon, my friend will read this, and realise just how much I need him.

My True Disguise…

I did not create this blog for the concept of gathering a mass of followers, but simply to voice my actual feelings, henceforth the lack of design in my profile. It is apparent to myself that I must rid myself of this disguise I wear, that I must voice my true, inner thoughts that I so wrongly supress in order to keep those around me content. I care more for those around me than I do myself, therefore I lie? That is not how things are supposed to be. That is not who I’m supposed to be. Therefore in order to keep everyone I know satisfied, as well as myself, I feel urged to let out this emotional lie that is my mind.